Because

Now all of my friends have a blog.
Because I didn't know of one until now- which is alright.
Because I was the first one to get one- that makes me feel pretty special, yup.
Because I feel pretty dumb for not understanding this right now.
Because I feel pretty stupid for acting the way I did.
Because I feel pretty shitty for ever thinking I was the only one who felt that way.
Because I feel pretty selfish for assuming all of the things that I did.
Because I feel pretty terrible for doing that to you on your birthday- I really am sorry.
Because now I understand that you are not better than me, and I am not better than you, and we are both people in this world destined to go different places.
I have learned that I have wasted many hours comparing myself to you, and you must understand that as many insecurities you may have because of me I had because of you. I wish we would have just talked about it, but you never told me so I never knew. It would have made things easier, you know. Still would. I still think we need to talk about it. I am such a talker.