It makes me feel ANIMATED!

Just kidding. E-surance commercials are sooo dumb. Windex commercials are funny though.

"This is not my house. This is not my house! *bang*"
BWAHAHAHA.

It doesn't really make sense if you think about it, why wouldclan windows make him think that it wasn't his house? Just because it was clean? Well, maybe, you shouldn't rely on your wife so much, get your ass up from that nap your taking, and clean the damn windows yourself! I hate how in all of those cleaner liquid commercials, the women are always cleaning while the men are always lounging somewhere.
NO WAY. That girl did not run and do a vault or whatever on one leg. You can't run on one leg, and you need to run to do that. So psh nawt visa commercials.

Okay, back to the feature presentation: Bruse Almighty. That sucks for him. He gets fired for making weird fces on television and calling someone a fucker or whatever, (am I allowed to say that on here? I hope there is no language police) and the he gets like beat up by some gang or whatever and-- He is just mean. He doesn't have to take it out on his poor girlfriend. I like the davantages of using a laptop, sittin' in front of the TV and blogging. Jim carrey is a good actor, he makes funny faces... they pull all the same stunts in all these movies. He throws the pager; pager still beeps! I've seen it in movies before.
OMG ITS... not Van. Okay never mind this sucks it is not Van. He and Barbara Jean are the only reason I watch Reba. Why isn't there any Sonics in my area? Man, that sucks. I have to call Jade! I'm going to her house tomorrow, maybe. If I can get ahold of her. Be right baaaack! Okay, it's ringing. Ringing. Ringing. Riningggg... Voicemail. That's so Jade. Ha.
Back to the movie: I like big white rooms... OH MY GOD THE REALIZATION OF THE CENTURY: MORGAN FREEMAN IS GOD! Wow, that really explains a lot.
"God is a mean kid with a magnifying glass, and I'm the ant!" :)
HOLYCRAP POTTERPUPPETPALS. youtube.com. look them up. FUNNYCRAP.

SCREW IT !

Okay, screw every time I said I liked Jacob more.

IF SHE PICKS JACOB OVER EDWARD I AM GOING TO BURN ALL OF THE BOOKS! ALL OF THEM! AHJGLF;D;SGFSD!

end of entry.

nothing.

I haven't anything to write about. Except the usuals, of course: my obsession, how bored I am at home all the time, and that my mom has food for me but she's taking her sweet time to get home. >.< The lack of inspiration is so depressing, but I know why. It's because whats there to write about when you're at home all the time? I don't get out nearly enough.
I've been listening to Stephenie Meyers's (Meyers'?) playlist for her books, and it's been keeping my interested. I also decided that I have a new favorite band: Muse. Of course, it won't ever outnumber the 31 Hush Sound songs on iTunes I have, but you know. I got a stomach ache from eating too many carrots yesterday :( I didn't think that was possible. I'm so tired of writing these boring little entries just to pass time... I'm going to go pack for New York, then go for a walk. I wish it was cold. I HATE hot weather. Ughhhhhh asdl;fdsa.

so tired

EDIT: I used to have a picture here, with writing that was in a different language. I took it out because it was too big.

I'd like to know what language that's in. It looks like a pretty language, like Arabic or something. I've never heard anyone speak Arabic before... I'm going to see my grandmother's next week, little one and big one. I call my grammas Little Gramma and Big Gramma, because my dad's mom is 4'5? Somewhere around there; my mom's mom is like 6'0. Isn't that weird? It's like my height is going to be a mystery to all, because all the women on my dad's side are small, and all the women on my mom's side are freakin' TALL AS EFF. Actually, my height isn't a mystery, I'm going to be tall. I'm like 5'5 now, so obviously I'm not going to be short because they are 5'0 at their tallest. We're going to NY to see my whole family, which is actually really small. On my dad's side it's just me. My aunt has no children, so all the pressure goes to my dad to have children. I think that might be the only reason he had children at all. My sister and I got into another fight... Because of it I'm not allowed into the city when we go to NY. I almost cried. That was the whole effin' reason I was going to NY! Ugh ugh ugh. I was going to wear a purple dressy type thing. I had it all planned outttt. Sorry, I had to whine about that for a second.

OMGOMGOMG.
I have an actual layout on my Myspace! But, I don't know how long I'm going to keep it. This blog really isn't interesting at all, just me complaining. Stupid sister. Ergh.

Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try, to fix you

I want lights to guide me home, please.

I am sorry. This is my third post in like an hour. I am a nasty person sometimes. I say mean things... I don't mean them. Hardly ever. You won't know who I am talking about, but I only said that to you because you took something away from me. You took away my ... my intelligence. It was the only thing I had! If I am not known as "The Smart One" I am nothing. I knew I was going to react that way. My whole future (ironic) relies on my brain. You took it away. You actually didn't take it away, if I actually were smart (which I'm really not all that smart) I would have enjoyed it. You know, a brain challenge. But everything you said made me confused and I couldn't twist my way out and I would be wrong and it made me feel like I had no right to an opinion. You do see the wholes in my logic. I couldn't think of what to say to get you to stop so I attacked you... Which only made me look dumb. I probably am. Congratulations, you are smart. I am dumb.

Alone forever.

"I feel like I have a universe of beauty, magic, love, and wonder in my mind and heart. But I'm not pretty. I think I will be alone forever."

Sit down, read that, and think. Think hard. This about our society. Think about the magazines. Think about your mind. When you look around, do you spend extra time noticing people who to you, are ugly? People shouldn't be this way. Whoever wrote that is beautiful. It shines through a postcard. I read that and realized how true this is. I know that I am afraid I will will never be loved. Or, as superficial as it is, that I will never be with somebody that I am attracted too. Shouldn't everybody have that? Doesn't everybody deserved to love and be loved in return? What if you were to turn 60, and realized that you have never truly been loved by anyone. That you have never loved anyone. A friend of mine once said that love is not about be selfish and taking one person to be your own, that love is about loving everything. Love is about loving everyone and everything and experiencing that kind of love. To think about everyone all the time. To ... just lose yourself in that much love. Why do you think you are not pretty? Who has told you that? What is pretty? I googled pretty, and all there is is pictures of naked girls. So, is pornography pretty? I searched beautiful, and the same. Naked girls. I searched ugly next. I... I don't understand. Posting pictures of people you think are ugly makes you ugly. Ugly is in the mind. I am not being original here. You have heard this before. Why doesn't it sink in? I was once told that I was ugly. That I was fat. Even that I would never get married, because I was ugly and fat. I don't even know who said it. It was anonymous. Do I think that that person knows me? No, I don't. What you have to accept is that you are beautiful. Everyone is not beautiful. Whoever said that to me, is not beautiful. Well, now this is getting waaaay too corny. A little bit about myself: I am not skinny. Am I fat? (Gah I hate that word) No. My mind... My mind is my own. I am not the most beautiful thing ever on the outside. I believe that inside, I am. This is what inspired me. My own feelings about myself.. what they used to be, what they still are, and hopefully what they will be. I have all those usual fears: rejection, never being loved, solitude. I am getting better though. I don't like to talk about it, for fear that I get out of hand. I cry easily, you see. I hope that what I write will one day help somebody.

during the night

I figured out why I love Edward so much. Jacob, too. Can't leave him out. I love Edward because it means that you don't have to be exceptional. You don't have to be exceptionally beautiful, smart, athletic, funny. You can be normal, and still have hope that somebody like Edward will come along and say you smell good, (I know that it would be love at first sight, or smell, if that happened to me <3) . In Jacob's case, she is his mortal enemy, and he can't help himself. I, myself, don't like Bella much. She's too clingy, too picky, too... Dumb. But anyways, Jacob loves her anyways. Who wouldn't want that for themselves? Who, in the back of our selfish minds, wouldn't want that?
I question myself constantly, what would the relationship be like if Edward could read her mind? If he could read mine? What would he say? Would I be like shallow Jessica to him, not worth a second? Hmm. I know the answer to that.

Nut I just thought I'd let you know, that that's why I love the book. Probably more than any normal person should, but hey? That's me. Personally, I'd've chosen Jacob. Corii Black? Yes, no? Haha, forget I said that. I get tinglies in my stomach from that book! That's not natural, I don't think. I'm also trying for complete honesty here. So, honestly, I've always liked Edward more than Jacob. But, in the long run, I'm just too much of a wimp to handle the pain of turning into a vampire, so I'd probably choose Jacob. WOW pathetic at it's best. Pain doesn't work well with Corii. That's all for now, I'll post another later today. I've got a lot on my mind this afternoon.